Everybody is just too busy

You know our world has changed so much that there is not time for what is most important, there is no priority for people and true quality relationships anymore. Yes life is so fast that we just keep going, keep taking on more and more so much so we forget to set our priorities and then we lose sight of those in our life that our the most important to us.

I have been searching for so long for someone or more than someone to be a priority in my life and be a priority in theirs....someone to share with ....someone to say hi to at any time of the day.....to chat with on occassion to even spend time with. Aside from time with my family (kids) I don't get a lot of time with anyone actually. Everyone is just too busy. Too busy to me is an excuse because often what is expected is simply a quick hello, a quick message, a quick reply, and/or an occasional visit.

I am busy too I have work, volunteer work. a household, three kids, family, friends etc. but I still always have time for those who are most dear to my heart. My fear which seems reality these days is that there is no one's heart out there where I have the same priority. I don't know to be honest if I'll ever find it. I'm not even talking on a romantic level just a really awesome best friend type level. It just doesn't exist anymore or I am just not worthy of it. Yes I have god to talk to whenever I want or need but that relationship is different and not what I'm talking about.

I was becoming too busy in my own life and drifting away ....so I knew I had to examine whether the way I was currently spending my time accurately reflected my deepest values and priorities. I now make sure that my schedule has adequate time for the things that are truly most important to me.

Sadly I have not found anyone else who can truly do this with me. I feel really ripped off that I get a glimmer of it with people and then they just disappear.

I have really made space in my heart but it continues to remain empty.

I do appreciate people have full lives but to me priorities mean putting people FIRST. I just don't know if I'll ever be in someone's top priorities.

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